The Struggle

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“The Sruggle”(2020). Oil Sticks on paper.

Parkinson’s and the struggle within.  Now; over three years since the initial diagnosis, I question whether I have really accepted the truth of it.  One cannot argue with the physical realities of the progressive disease and this fact alone places the mind in an uncertain situation.  On the one hand it is obvious that I cannot be in denial, yet on the other I must be positive and push on.  My mental disposition drives me to push on.  However, at days end, with a body weary and mind most vulnerable, the underling conundrum remains.  Towards what am I pushing?

“Damn Parkinson’s”

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Pushing – On.

The struggle of living with Parkinson’s Disease. I needed to depict a figure pushing against unseen forces that entangle and distract, forces that seem to anchor my feet. I pull against them, pushing forward towards the crossing.  If I am bold enough to stand at the kerb, traffic will stop, then the pressure will be on for me to perform by walking without shuffling or freezing and make it safely to the other side.